goodbye

sometimes it's hard to say goodbye

it just feels easier to keep holding on, but in the long run it's usually a good thing to let go
it allows room for new things, for transformation
and maybe the goodbye isn't forever,
but you can't know until you really say goodbye and mean it.
this is a list of things i let go or need to let go.

goodbye parents who are together
goodbye dad. you weren't a good father
goodbye listening to the crap you talk
goodbye shyness
goodbye helplessness
goodbye bad lifestyle
boodbye boring life
goodbye being afraid to say what i think
goodbye messy room
goodbye avoiding eyecontact
goodbye thomas. we've had so much fun
goodbye fear of loving you too much
goodbye not putting enough effort in us
goodbye selfdestruction
goodbye not talking about what bothers me
goodbye crying every night
goodbye doubt
goodbye getting too nervous about talking in public
goodbye not realising what i had
goodbye temptations
goodbye not having fun because i miss you like hell
goodbye to only falling for the assholes
goodye restisting intimacy because others treated me bad
goodbye yesterday
goodbye giving a shit about what others think
goodbye waiting for you
goodbye e x p e c t a t i o n s
goodbye to being upset for not understanding what went through your head
goodbye to unfinished& now broken dreams
goodbye old me
goodbye to always saying goodbye